WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!

Why am I feeling this? I know there’s a reason for this, but I just want to post here what I feel. I feel I’ll already burst if I’m not gonna post here what I’m feeling right now. Why there are people who are not making any effort but still they caught the people’s attention? And why I’m not the kind of a person like that? Why is it I need to make a big, big effort before I can caught an attention of just even ONE person? Kailangan ko bang lage nlng muna magpapansin bago ako mapansin? Hindi ba pwedeng pansinin nlng ako kahit hindi ako nagpapapansin?!?!?!? Probably, if I did not text you and share a little info about my problem, you’ll not exert an effort like the effort you are exerting right now, right? Maybe, if you did not knew what happened to me, you’ll not waste your time just to accompany me. Because I am NOBODY! I am NOT a big deal! I am JUST me! Please don’t make me believe that I am a big deal to you even if I’m not because it just make me feel worst. It is so hard to understand and it is also so hard to accept the fact! But what can I do? I feel I’m broken. Some pieces of me are lost. I’m saying this all because I know nobody will waste their time to read or just to visit this dead blog of a person who’s nothing to anyone. Who cares?!? No one cares! Not even a single person cares!

Why am I feeling this? I know there’s a reason for this, but I just want to post here what I feel. I feel I’ll already burst if I’m not gonna post here what I’m feeling right now. Why there are people who are not making any effort but still they caught the people’s attention? And why I’m not the kind of a person like that? Why is it I need to make a big, big effort before I can caught an attention of just even ONE person? Kailangan ko bang lage nlng muna magpapansin bago ako mapansin? Hindi ba pwedeng pansinin nlng ako kahit hindi ako nagpapapansin?!?!?!? Probably, if I did not text you and share a little info about my problem, you’ll not exert an effort like the effort you are exerting right now, right? Maybe, if you did not knew what happened to me, you’ll not waste your time just to accompany me. Because I am NOBODY! I am NOT a big deal! I am JUST me! Please don’t make me believe that I am a big deal to you even if I’m not because it just make me feel worst. It is so hard to understand and it is also so hard to accept the fact! But what can I do? I feel I’m broken. Some pieces of me are lost. I’m saying this all because I know nobody will waste their time to read or just to visit this dead blog of a person who’s nothing to anyone. Who cares?!? No one cares! Not even a single person cares!

how cum i felt so empty???

i feel i've lost myself..
i keep on trying to find me..
but it's lyk me keeps on hidin'..

i have so many questions in my mind..
can't find any answers..
can't find the one who holds it..

my heart's breakin', can't figure out what's with me..
my mind's havin' a hard time too findin' where could be me..
my soul's havin a hard time knowing who's really me..

Nowhere but Here;
A family not met just yesteryear.
Began with simple hi's with their names,
Grew through playing each others games.

Different fields leads their way to separate,
Not a reason for them to deteriorate.
Hi's and hello's must not depreciate.
It's a challenge to pass and take.

Not anywhere but here,
We are always willing to hear
All the troubles and fears
To take away each others tears.

.~*rei*~.